Here's a beautiful thing to ponder upon: ask yourself why it's so important to you to fail in something? 

Example: "I'm poor. Why is it so important to me to be poor?" or "I don't deserve love. Why is it so important to me to not deserve love?" You get it. Now journal. And tapochki.

Pulling all-nighters with my kids

where are the girls, though

the unz-unz-unz?

I got hot bodies and cuddles

the coughs and strange words

coming from delirious dreams

and a thermometer somewhere...

But where are the girls, the unz-unz-unz