When expanding
make sure your laughter
isn't of the kind that shoves
you back into yourself



I'm feeling like an old lady babying my nervous system and at the same time like a kid taking things apart and discovering new worlds. I grew up in relationships that were built like the Babyl Tower - adrenaline equaled excitement. Except for a few calm moments I always chose threat & survival as passion & love. But now. Now I know from the deepest caves of my being that calm can be thrilling. Safety can be erotic. Stability can feel intoxicating. I've found a huge space in me that's all pleasure, and now I'm going to decorate it from my own source of seductive, quiet, exciting creation. Maybe I can even contract and expand in the same moment. Let's see what happens.



That killer is cute
I thought
and shook the walls
with laughter
That's all I've ever known -
adrenaline
Time to flip out
into erotic calm