Whoever you may be - a phantom of the city, a fog of the valley, a spirit of good intentions, however close you may be to me - as my own thoughts of life&death or as far away as the closest ocean - if you were to plant an idea into my head not so long ago about things "baby", I would have dug it out and handed it right back to you. I would probably have even wrapped it into pretty paper, taped it with a bow, so it could take longer for you to give it again, or more awkward. Yet today I receive packages of baby clothes, research alien concepts of diapers, prepare to exercise my brain with sign language, storm government websites about birth certificates, stare mindlessly at lists of names, I even subjected myself to a doctor ... So maybe now I will learn to flow, to accept, to flex and release, to grow, fall & rise and be happy with all of it. That sounds like a blast! Here's to take off!!!

o, boy

   

      Not that long ago I had a great chance to receive energy work from an amazing woman. After our session she told me that she had balanced my physical body to match the vibrations of my soul, which had put me back into my body, grounded me. She was curious to see if I felt any different or better. I was really taken by surprise and didn't know what to do. Why would anyone put anyone back into their bodies? I already have the pleasure of dragging this physical thing around every day, everywhere I go, through the stickiness of time and perception. I dress it up every day, I clean it and feed it, I stretch it and keep it oiled, and must do my best to keep it alive and working. I am also so attached to the body that I actually think of myself as the physical! When I imagine myself in different places or situations or thoughts, I am always in the body ... And everything around me is hard and solid, and has a physical shape. We build things and make things, and they are all physical. Except maybe for music, which is still made with solid objects. Except maybe for singing, which still comes out of the body. Do we as people know or create anything that is not physical? Maybe thoughts? Even they are slow, even thoughts have forms. Maybe vibrations, maybe ...
     I just want out ...