June 2025 I met a man who was, like many of them in my life, brilliant. Yet he lived like a bum and didn't ask for more. For years I thought that the idea of patrons of the arts needs to come back and create a new lineage - patrons of genius minds. Those minds, who come up with world-changing creations, or sometimes (I'm not even afraid to say it) ideas that restructure the universe with their newness, those minds usually don't think in terms of money.
Listening to that man in June I suddenly realized that patrons are not needed. Because it's all in the nervous system and his body language was my inspiration. An experiment was born. No one wanted to talk to me about their knowledge of the nervous system, nor desired to become the lab rat. So I became it. Can normalizing one's whole system bring wholesome success to any person?
Today my grief is heavier than cement in lungs. Not depression, but expected sorrow, paired with excitement that's unfathomable in its proportions. We'll see what happens next. But I could be right this time LOL
