Dancing through it all,

twirling away

can't stop feeling

for the traps under my foot

And if I find them

I'll grow

And if I don't 

I'll fly

Letting go

Watching myself

trying on a trick

to disappear

Letting go

Making a new habit

of not standing in the way

of the dance

28.VI.2021

Tell me, how did we get here?

I hear gunshots in the dark

ripping echo through the nightdreaming woods

Tearing the lace of life

residue of lead, fear

Smokefall blanket for all of us

Missed heartbeat

My feet sweating tears not in my eyes

 

I'm sat here for breakfast

with a Demon

(the tea was my idea, he showed up uncalled)

It sounds so Regal

but I keep sitting

and I keep looking

He's just a scared child

of mine

20.VI.2021

 

I crossed the ocean

with something on my mind

But turned out I

had no vocabulary for it

Sad landing.

18.VI.2021

 

All the more I'm enjoying this life

with all its insanities, wisdom and elegance

With all its grace, depth and complexities

You're a part of it

And I am grateful for that.

 

15.VI.2021 

 

 

If I have to drive a stake
into the heart
to mark my free spirit
So be it 

13.VI.2021

 

When did I start ending the days
instead of letting them be
whatever they want

11.VI.2021

 

- I can't get into her head

and it's making me frail

- Listen, man, to know her in detail

all you have to do is to

know yourself

Exhale

6.VI.2021

 

I fall in love

roughly three times each day

You'd think it's a hyperbole

or a fleeting kind of summer breeze

Yet it sweeps in and settles deep in me

for life

Here's the first one of my day:

A.A.

 

My eyes have been feasting

on Spring moods, feelings, grasses

clouds, shadows

Its whole being

being born out of sleep

awakens in me something

I can't remember but that

which I yearn for while

pulling in the yarn laid behind

lest I stumble upon it

and remember the fractals in the sky

 

     Куинджи

Broke me down

emotionally

physically

And then said,

find the positive

be responsible for your own

happiness