Largely, among other things,

as always and forever,

travel is about emotions 

This morning I had a

soulful breakfast back home

with grandma

I've grieved a relationship for a year now. And learned, and grew, gained and released. Realized both that I did nothing wrong and wrong I did. I made a decision back then to put up with things, and after I blamed the other for my feeling miserable and sick. And now what? Will I dare again? 😜 in another year?

 Sun light gliding

on spider webs

carrying nourishment

and love notes

Much brighter than a thumbs-up

in Messenger

Я живая, я живая, я - живая!

Повторяю, как мантру, over again

So much is suddenly here -

my right to abundance, emotions

imperfections, taking up space

My right to live, be seen

живааая!!!

In a conversion 

with myself

this morning

I let go of a habit

And I also learned

a difference

of seeing a situation 

from every angle

and making excuses for people

Take me on a car ride

anywhere

just so I don't have to drive

for once

Air out mosquitoes from my mind

bizarre fantasies

Get us into life-long adventures

You won't regret it

Small batch ideas

don't let them get mass produced

Give them away freely

ask everyone to mix in themselves

High levels of unclaimed love

in my blood

Rx: travel & art

 I felt like screaming

and I did

Then decided to reprogram

Wanna vociferate with me

in ways different

come

Father's Day 2023.

I don't have a heart story to relay. I can't even say I wish I did. And any story that doesn't have a happy end has deeper understanding.

Three grandfathers, two dads and one father for my own children tell me from afar that they're enough. Being a portal for myself and my kids is so very enough! In this amazing life that's my insight. Let's celebrate ♥️

How can I not

lose my mind in summer

Those skies

light dresses

and wild wild cars

I'll go anywhere, I am

Dirty matcha me

in the morning

with mushrooms & cacao

and damn good music

or I will

It is impossible!

absolutely impossible

to stop channelling creation

No understanding can grasp it

no mind see it

and anything standing between you

will drive you mad

You'll forever try to capture

the human experience

the one that will conquer you

in return

The world, in awe, bows

Хочу танцевать с тобой

пока у тебя всё не выпадет из карманов

пока театр не станет жизнью

пока счастье не превратится в судьбу

Here's a beautiful thing to ponder upon: ask yourself why it's so important to you to fail in something? 

Example: "I'm poor. Why is it so important to me to be poor?" or "I don't deserve love. Why is it so important to me to not deserve love?" You get it. Now journal. And tapochki.

Pulling all-nighters with my kids

where are the girls, though

the unz-unz-unz?

I got hot bodies and cuddles

the coughs and strange words

coming from delirious dreams

and a thermometer somewhere...

But where are the girls, the unz-unz-unz

Turns out 

you can't preserve you

on way to happiness

It's a state of inner light

freedom & purity

Bare yourself

gain everything

Moving magic out today

     from there to here

Could never ground myself

     was always dreaming

Like oceans lure rivers

     like moon lulls the seas

I summon myself to land

     for loving

I molded to the outside -

one sock striptease

at jazz clubs

Ah! the outside has changed

now

In melted emotions

friends meet me

by my language of love -

surprise

And saturate me with magic

generators of love

Being truly oneself

is not what you think,

glass ball

Downs and I. A personal story

I've been really dropping into Woman 

the past six, seven years

A landscape so bizarre sometimes

in this territory of post-wars normal

Feeling manically up in the lushness

falling suddenly down

in the vastness of lack of support

But this gentle moist morning reminds me

that my only purpose in life

is to keep myself full

always full to the brim being happy

And if making dips in the cheese

is what joys me

then today I've fulfilled my highest

purpose in life

Let's have a conversation

made up entirely of things

we've never said before

And layer it as composition

of some new structure

like first-saw strandbeests

on that beach

Bow 

before a Thank You

is for accepting, taking in

the biggest thing - time

spent thinking about you

Thank You is giving back

the greatest gift you can -

emotion