Here's a beautiful thing to ponder upon: ask yourself why it's so important to you to fail in something? 

Example: "I'm poor. Why is it so important to me to be poor?" or "I don't deserve love. Why is it so important to me to not deserve love?" You get it. Now journal. And tapochki.

Pulling all-nighters with my kids

where are the girls, though

the unz-unz-unz?

I got hot bodies and cuddles

the coughs and strange words

coming from delirious dreams

and a thermometer somewhere...

But where are the girls, the unz-unz-unz

Turns out 

you can't preserve you

on way to happiness

It's a state of inner light

freedom & purity

Bare yourself

gain everything

Moving magic out today

     from there to here

Could never ground myself

     was always dreaming

Like oceans lure rivers

     like moon lulls the seas

I summon myself to land

     for loving

I molded to the outside -

one sock striptease

at jazz clubs

Ah! the outside has changed

now