I'm feeling like an old lady babying my nervous system and at the same time like a kid taking things apart and discovering new worlds. I grew up in relationships that were built like the Babyl Tower - adrenaline equaled excitement. Except for a few calm moments I always chose threat & survival as passion & love. But now. Now I know from the deepest caves of my being that calm can be thrilling. Safety can be erotic. Stability can feel intoxicating. I've found a huge space in me that's all pleasure, and now I'm going to decorate it from my own source of seductive, quiet, exciting creation. Maybe I can even contract and expand in the same moment. Let's see what happens.

That killer is cute

I thought

and shook the walls

with laughter

That's all I've ever known -

adrenaline

Time to flip out

into erotic calm

Вышла я с собой на рамсы

разделась

засмеялась

наслаждалась

в лучах, в правде

в моменте

Какое счастье быть

женщиной

Какое счастье - 

быть!

Learning to regulate

And sitting here, post

in pure bliss

in warm sun love

in knowledge that 

I'm made

for pleasure

I feel complete

Connection is here

in my heart bones 

and my smile

at the realization

The search is over

I’m onto a new experiment.

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@alisa-severskaya

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$alkaeighth

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