If a fox crosses your path, if a raven crows in the west between noon and 3pm, if you put a pair of red underwear on a chandelier, or eat grapes in it from under the table at midnight, if you work on your nervous system, add weight into the Earth zone of your home, create generosity in your life, meditate, elevate your spending, sniff glue making a vision board or lick markers drawing neurographics, you might not have to work ever again. At least that's the plan.

If a fox crosses your path, if a raven crows in the west between noon and 3pm, if you put a pair of red underwear on a chandelier, or eat grapes in it from under the table at midnight, if you work on your nervous system, add weight into the Earth zone of your home, create generosity in your life, meditate, elevate your spending, sniff glue making a vision board or lick markers drawing neurographics, you might not have to work ever again. At least that's the plan.

I've started from complete zero twice in the past 13 years that I've lived in Crestone. First by myself, then with kids: no house, no car, no job, no money. Many lessons learned, many spaces in my system retrained and then retrained again. How fascinating and beautiful, and connected to everything. Let's thrive, y'all, in connection!
Я куплю себе туфли к фраку,
Буду петь по ночам псалом
Заведу большую собаку.
Ничего, как-нибудь проживем.
А когда износятся туфли
И издохнет от старости пес
Пеплом станут в камине угли
Звезды с небом скует мороз
Будет ночь, словно льдинка, хрупкой,
Будет музыкой мрак дышать
На подстилке из старого фрака
Будет милый щенок лежать
Новый фрак повиснет на стуле
Пара туфель стоит у дверей
Жить по-новому очень трудно
Жить прошедшим еще трудней.
М. Булгаков

When expanding

make sure your laughter

isn't of the kind that shoves

you back into yourself

I'm feeling like an old lady babying my nervous system and at the same time like a kid taking things apart and discovering new worlds. I grew up in relationships that were built like the Babyl Tower - adrenaline equaled excitement. Except for a few calm moments I always chose threat & survival as passion & love. But now. Now I know from the deepest caves of my being that calm can be thrilling. Safety can be erotic. Stability can feel intoxicating. I've found a huge space in me that's all pleasure, and now I'm going to decorate it from my own source of seductive, quiet, exciting creation. Maybe I can even contract and expand in the same moment. Let's see what happens.

That killer is cute

I thought

and shook the walls

with laughter

That's all I've ever known -

adrenaline

Time to flip out

into erotic calm